I saw this photo on my Tumblr dashboard and due to boredom, I didn’t think twice to try.
Actually, I was very careful while I was staring at this group of letters in the fear of seeing words that I don’t want to see. Somehow, just the thought of being able to know what words describe you, though random, still sends me chills. It bothers me. What if I spotted negative words?
I don’t know how it happened but my words seemed so accurate.
FAT, BROKEN and PRETTY.
Though how much careful I roll my eyes over the crossword puzzle, I ended up getting the word FAT which is, I know, a big NO for girls but reality has its own way of proving itself and this time, it hit me. Yes, I’m fat. I used to be a normal sized girl, not big, not skinny but as my college days went on, I began to get bigger and bigger. I’m frustrated. I can never wear the clothes that fit me before and as if my life had changed drastically just as my outfit did. From varieties of clothes to tshirts-all-the-time. Maybe that’s why, my eyes landed on the word BROKEN. I may not be heart broken but my confidence is. I don’t know why I’m being so dramatic right now but I’m just writing what’s on my mind, simultaneously. When I was still the normal-sized girl, my confidence was already low so can you imagine my confidence right now that I am fat and introverted? Good thing, I saw PRETTY. I realized, beyond my imperfections is a pretty girl waiting to be freed. It may sound unreal but I just can’t find the right words to describe the hope that single word gave me. It’s like, it pushed away all the negative thoughts and renewed my inner self. As if it was telling me, “Yes, you’re fat and that may make you feel broken but hey, you are still pretty. Everyone is. You just have to look at the bright side of everything.”
Hah! But still, no crossword puzzle or anything can identify our true personality but us. Through the guidance of God, we’ll know it by heart.
So, have you tried it? What are your words? What can you say about them, do they fit you? 🙂